When I was in Arizona, I wanted to fall to my knees.
And it wasn’t the canyons (Grand + Antelope) that did it for me. Nor was it the red rocks that made me feel a profound sense of peace and well-being.
Surprising since there were more than enough reasons to be in awe.
I’m embarrassed to say that my trip to Sedona RE-minded me that I’ve still got a lot to learn when it comes to this class called life.
The Big Drop to My Knees Moment
I felt sick to my stomach when standing on this ledge overlooking Horseshoe Bend. And it wasn’t vertigo or a fear of heights. Nothing admirable like that.
I had already experienced about 6 days of awe having traveled all the way from Phoenix to Tucson to Antelope Canyon and now here.
After taking about 500 photos of things like this:
I noticed that not only had I almost run out of battery in my camera, but I ran out of memory too. Being far from an outlet and my computer, I decided to delete a few. Guess what I did instead?
I DELETED MY ENTIRE CAMERA!!!
Over 500 photos of our entire trip.
The only reason why I have these is that my super smart husband was able to recover them-well most of them. The others came out like crap and looked like this:
And as embarrassed as I am to admit it, I have to be honest and say, “It’d about ruined my trip.”
Can you believe it?
I was willing to throw away 6 days of memorable experiences with my husband just because I didn’t have proof that we were there. We still went horseback riding, saw the stars falling from the diamond filled sky, walked up red mountains and gazed at the sun as set on the Grand Canyon.
And the Lesson Is?
I wonder if going to Arizona had less to do when the sense of spirituality and magic I felt while I was there and more about the lesson it taught me. This familiar desperation was a sign that maybe it’s time for another challenge. You know how I love my challenges.
As we countdown the weeks to another year, I’m focusing The Inspiring Bee on two words. And it’s not “eat less” “make more” or any of the normal yearly resolutions. This year I’m going to focus on different aspects of letting go.
Two words I’ve been having trouble with since I was a kid waving to the toilet bowl. {True story by the way.}
This week I’m letting go of the hope for a perfect photo and gaining acceptance for what is.
What will you let go of?
